Reflections From ‘D WALL’

I decided to take the easy climb despite my desire to climb the medium wall. It was my fear of failing the task that urged me to take the mediocre step though I know deep inside that I can finish the medium climb or even the expert climb, with the right amount of sweat of course. Indeed, fear paralyzes us and stops us from undertaking great things. The easy wall was indeed painless. There were times that I had difficulty reaching one rock but all in all, the climb was a cinch! I rang the bell signaling the end of my climb. Some find it amusing but the difficult part for me was getting down. Actually, it’s the fun part for others – sliding down the wall. However, I find grabbing on the rope and allowing the staff to get me down very difficult. I guess trusting in others is an issue for me. Don’t get me wrong, I trust a lot but not on giving me results that I would consider close to perfection.  I am an independent person and I usually do things my own way. After all, I believe in the saying “If you want to get things done, do it yourself!” coz maybe you’ll just be disappointed if others do not meet your expectations. Moving on, the guy holding my security rope told me to just hold on tightly to the rope and allow myself to be carried down but I told him that I would like to descend on my own.  He urged me to just slide down coz going down the way I came up is more difficult than the climb. But stubborn as I am, I insisted on getting down without his help. I was only a quarter away from the top when I realized that the task is indeed difficult and would cost me a lot of energy. So finally, I agreed and allowed him to bring me down. It was a cinch! And oh it was few seconds of fun! I realized that it is the same with my walk with God. Sometimes, I act so stubborn that I want to do things my own way despite Him telling me to simply trust Him. Like what happened in ‘D WALL’, before I reach the middle of my journey, I would raise my hands in surrender and say “Yeah, You are right Lord. I trust You. Please carry me for I am tired.” If I only listened to Him beforehand, I wouldn’t be placed in a situation where I would be exhausted. This happened so many times in my walk with Him and yet I still make wrong choices.

A REMINDER:

 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart; and don't lean on your own understanding. In all things acknowledge him, and he shall direct your way. [Proverbs 3:5, 6]”