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Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Ang Pera na Hindi Bitin

           A friend asked me if I have read the book “Ang Pera na Hindi Bitin” by Eduardo O. Roberto, Jr.  I said no, so he took the liberty to buy one for me.  I never liked reading Tagalog books or articles but since it’s a gift and the title was quite catchy, I took a mental note to read the book when I got home. After all, I think I really need help in managing my finances. For over a year that I have been employed, my savings account would still go back to zero and my passbook closed. I’ve read so many articles on managing finances and have tried them but at the end of it all, I get tired and just go back to my ways of spending and keeping money.
As I climbed on my bed, I thought “What new things will this book teach me?” Good thing the book was a mix of Filipino and English since I find some Filipino words difficult to understand. Oh yes, this is my first time to read a ‘Taglish’ book. The first few pages were interesting which urged me to read further. I expected to read same advice from financial experts and yes I did but this time with a biblical point of view! Unlike, other books or articles I’ve read on finances, this one incorporated biblical truths. A PLUS, I must say! Everyone must realize that in whatever task we are to do, the bible is a primary consultant. The book offered 7 Strategies on how to have ‘ang pera na hindi bitin.’ Like other books, to ‘save’ was cited as a strategy. I was once again given the drive to save 10% of my income for a start. For many times, I tried this but I guess saving is just one subject that I have to go through from freshman to senior years! I always flunk. I hope this time; this drive will help me spare the 10% of my salary from MOA.  Another strategy was to ‘give.’ I was reminded of Malachi 3:10 (NIV)
“Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this,” says the LORD Almighty, “and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that there will not be room enough to store it.
What a verse! The Lord said “Test me in this.” This is a challenge from the Lord. Are we up to the challenge? The third strategy was to ‘get out of debt and stop borrowing.’ Fortunately, I have no credit card. I applied once but the bank did not call, in short, denied. I prayed for the approval of the bank since I usually get airline tickets on the web and having my own credit card would lessen the burden of borrowing one’s account. Though, I don’t have a credit card, for the past months, I spent my money paying off airline tickets since I would get one every time there is a seat sale! Wrong move I guess because most of the time I get way out of my budget. I’m just so relieved now that I finally finished paying the tickets.
I will not further discuss the other strategies cited; it’s for you to find out when you decide to pursue the lifestyle which will lead you to ‘ang pera na hindi bitin.’ I finished the book in one sitting not only because it has few pages but because I was engrossed in reading till I forgot that it was bedtime. The book offered practical steps grounded on biblical principles which will surely help many in managing what God has given them. To answer my question, “What new things will this book teach me?” –it taught me “Huwag patayin ang manok na nangigitlog para sa’yo.”  What does this mean? Go and buy the book now so you can discover yourself! I am so thankful for my friend who gave me this book for it surely reminded me that I am just a manager of everything that I have; and I must be an excellent manager.  Kudos to “Ang Pera na Hindi Bitin.”

Sunday, May 22, 2011

My Bora Escapade 2011

Traveling for hours is less stressful when you have good company and a satisfied stomach.^^

1st Day

We set foot at the beautiful island of Boracay even before the sun rose to welcome travelers from all over the globe.
MARICON VILLE – simple, comfy, and affordable
It has a canteen where guests can eat at a reasonable price.
We got an air-conditioned room with bathroom and TV.

 Let the F-U-N begin!!
SUN – SEA – SAND! Oh, how I love!


NEMO! Here we come!
Snorkeling is soooo much fun!


Unlimited laugh trip!

This boat coasts Php600/hr and we just paid an additional Php100 for the goggles.
Php700 of snorkeling fun! Not bad, eh?

       If you want good food with less pressure on your wallet try:
Pork Sisig & Chicken Bbq @ Big Mama’s House

Walking along the fine white sand
 Under the moon who refuses to give her brightest light
The crowd at the far distance
Singing the messy melodies in my head

When you feel like a model!:P

Picture-picture
Anywhere…everywhere…

The unfinished castle…
Who will come to live there?
Who will save her?

Déjà vu
A relaxing way to end the night

2nd Day

Refreshed after a sound sleep! Let’s get on with the fun.

Island hopping!
I only paid Php165 for an hour! Yeah, believe that!

Manny Pacquiao’s Boracay Paradise


Snorkeling with the rough waves was also fun
But get ready to experience BODY PAINS afterwards!
If you want to enjoy viewing Nemo and his friends, opt for the still waters
Or you can go Helmet Diving!

 
Hava everywhere! Show off your Havas while doing something fun
and get Hava floaters for free!

Beat the sun with this yummy Halo-halo from Halowich!

D’Wall is a climb full of lessons!
You can try the Easy, Medium, & Expert climb!

Never miss the setting of the sun @ Boracay.

You can find buffet everywhere
or you can try the native inasal.

A lot of paint! Tourists dig this!
 & they are staying just beside Maricon Ville!

 
Starbucks @ Boracay to end the night!

 3rd Day

I’m having so much fun!
 
Love my tan!


 Tanduay Ice for only Php40.00 @ Sea Gaia! Cheapest find so far…
Or try Master Siomai just beside it.
 Forgive me, siomai is my favorite!!!
4th Day

Bid goodbye to the island life with souvenir shirts & accessories from Pala-pala
Or you can buy through the natives selling near the shores.


I hope to step on your shores again...soon!

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Reflections From ‘D WALL’

I decided to take the easy climb despite my desire to climb the medium wall. It was my fear of failing the task that urged me to take the mediocre step though I know deep inside that I can finish the medium climb or even the expert climb, with the right amount of sweat of course. Indeed, fear paralyzes us and stops us from undertaking great things. The easy wall was indeed painless. There were times that I had difficulty reaching one rock but all in all, the climb was a cinch! I rang the bell signaling the end of my climb. Some find it amusing but the difficult part for me was getting down. Actually, it’s the fun part for others – sliding down the wall. However, I find grabbing on the rope and allowing the staff to get me down very difficult. I guess trusting in others is an issue for me. Don’t get me wrong, I trust a lot but not on giving me results that I would consider close to perfection.  I am an independent person and I usually do things my own way. After all, I believe in the saying “If you want to get things done, do it yourself!” coz maybe you’ll just be disappointed if others do not meet your expectations. Moving on, the guy holding my security rope told me to just hold on tightly to the rope and allow myself to be carried down but I told him that I would like to descend on my own.  He urged me to just slide down coz going down the way I came up is more difficult than the climb. But stubborn as I am, I insisted on getting down without his help. I was only a quarter away from the top when I realized that the task is indeed difficult and would cost me a lot of energy. So finally, I agreed and allowed him to bring me down. It was a cinch! And oh it was few seconds of fun! I realized that it is the same with my walk with God. Sometimes, I act so stubborn that I want to do things my own way despite Him telling me to simply trust Him. Like what happened in ‘D WALL’, before I reach the middle of my journey, I would raise my hands in surrender and say “Yeah, You are right Lord. I trust You. Please carry me for I am tired.” If I only listened to Him beforehand, I wouldn’t be placed in a situation where I would be exhausted. This happened so many times in my walk with Him and yet I still make wrong choices.

A REMINDER:
 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart; and don't lean on your own understanding. In all things acknowledge him, and he shall direct your way. [Proverbs 3:5, 6]”

Monday, April 25, 2011

My LAST LB About You!

Hopefully, this is my last LB about you. I firmly say that this is my LAST LB about you! ahaha But who knows, right? Boracay was great! The sun, sand, and sea were magnificent! Its beauty did not fall short of my expectation. Sadly, they remind me of our plans of going to Palawan! I went there to reflect and pause but never really got the chance to ‘reflect and pause’! My schedule was so tight and upbeat! I had some thoughts though. Whenever I see couples, I remember you…how you held my hand…how you hugged me tight…how you looked at me with those deep adoring eyes. I smile inside. I missed you after all. How I miss you! And I know how much you miss me! Hahaha! But like I said, I firmly say that this is my LAST LB about you! I have to let go of the past so please release me. I don’t want to think of the “for now, I have to let you go…” coz it is holding me back. I want to enjoy the present and prepare for my future. No matter how hard it is, I have to go my own way. You chose your path without me, so I have to go with me, myself, and I. If you want to walk with me again, just feel free to catch up but I cannot assure you that everything will be the same. A lot has changed with me for the past two months. My perspective on relationship and memories really changed. Maybe, someday, you’ll be able to convince me to believe on old photos again or I’ll be able to meet someone who can make me! Scrap picture-taking coz when you break up with somebody and you want to forget, you have to go through all the hassle of gathering all the photos and burning them! So better not make any scrap book or take pictures of both of you! LOL! Anyway, I don't have  any photos to burn coz they are saved on my lappy, maybe someday I'll delete them. ;)

For the last time I will say this, "I love you & I miss you." Hopefully, someday, I can say I LOVED you. But for now what I can only say is “You HAD me. Good bye.”

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Ready to Fly

 Leave the past in its proper place - in the PAST!
Do not be like Lot's wife who looked back despite being warned.





 Enjoy the NOW!
It is a gift from the Life-giver.





 
Epic Lesson: If you fail to plan, you plan to fail.
The future belongs to the Lord. Trust.





Thursday, April 14, 2011

Here I Come!

I can't wait to smell the island of Boracay again. It has been a long time since I last stepped on its white shores.

I wonder what changed. Is it still as peaceful and rocky as it was three years ago?

It's an island paradise they say but I say it's a paradise for those who want to escape the reality of hurt, stress, and smog! It's a great place to unwind, to gather your thoughts, to compose yourself for the battle ahead.

My trip to Boracay is really unplanned but no matter what happens it still manages to get through the obstacles like office schedule and financial constraints.

I think God really wants me to go. I don't know why or maybe I do. Maybe He wants me to gather my thoughts or to realize how badly this fallen world needs a Savior.

Lately, I've been too consumed with my own problems and on how to get up after being dumped by the one I love. Oh well, you win some, you lose some.

I think I'm becoming too obsessed with myself...on how to pamper myself...or maybe on how to distract myself...maybe its high time I think of others again...

I want to be one of the brightest stars in the night. I want to help people. I hope this Boracay trip will help me gather what I've dropped in my stupefaction.

Hello Bora! Here I come!

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

What I Want for This Summer

I can smell B-O-R-A-C-A-Y
but before that
"Lord, I know it's still early for Christmas 
but can you please give me these?"


because I love SPEEDO!




because a maxi dress is a vacation essential!

Can't wait to smell B-O-R-A-C-A-Y!!!:)

Because I Miss Me...



because I miss Boracay...

I miss the feel of the fine white sands...

the sun shining brightly on my face...

the breeze of the sea on my long straight hair...

the nice native folks, not to mention the flaunting foreigners...




the hugs and laughter of friends...





the quiet and peaceful life...




because I miss me...with you.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Fake Smiles

I miss you...

I wonder what you're doing on the other side of the world...

Are you happy now? coz I'm not...

I try to...I'll try to...I'll try to live no matter how hard living is without you...

It has been a month already...I smile with these gloomy eyes whenever I remember how I survived those days of longing...of keeping my tears from falling...of faking strength...of fighting resentment and bitterness...

Until now, I struggle...I miss you more each day...I long to hold your hand...to touch your face...to hug you tight...I pray to wake up each day with you by my side...I hope that day would come..I hope...Sometimes, I think that it would be easy if I block you out of my life...if you don't exist in my world anymore...but that would also mean losing a part of my existence...and I don't want that to happen...

I am okay but I am not happy...I have joy but I am not happy..I smile a lot, like I used to...I laugh a lot like nothing has been broken...I carry on as if my knees are not hurting...I know I have to walk this road for our sake...so I will choose to understand even if I can't...I will choose to wait though its breaking me...I said that I will not hate...be bitter...resent...With this statement, I stand. I will still choose to love. Until the day, God changes my heart...or your heart.

I will choose to smile, to laugh, to dance...I'll fake these smiles until they become real.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

JUST A GLIMPSE OF HIS FAITHFULNESS

(excerpts from 2005 journal)

November 10, 2005

If God is with me, who can be against me? It’s so nice to be secure. I am very secure! When I read the Bible earlier, I was hit hard by a verse – Romans 9:20:

No, don't say that. Who are you, a mere human being, to argue with God? Should the thing that was created say to the one who created it, "Why have you made me like this?"

Paul was absolutely right! I have no right to question God. I am the clay and He is my POTTER. Thank You, Lord for choosing me as Your child.

November 11, 2005

PRAYER: Lord, I lift up to You my grades this 2nd semester. Let Your will be done.

RESULT:
PolSci150 – 2.0
NatSci2 – 1.0
Comm2 – 1.25
Comm3 – 1.5
CD151 – 2.25
Spanish20 – 1.75
PE – 1.0
= 1. 54

November 12, 2005

Indeed FORGIVENESS says, "I forgive you today, and I'm willing to forgive you again tomorrow." Lord, Thank You for forgiving me.

November 13, 2005

Earlier, Ptr. Joab talked about the signs of Your return. Indeed, You didn’t leave us guessing. I really pray that You will use me for Your glory. Let Your will be done. Love you!

November 14, 2005

Another day has passed…I hope I did my job well. Thank You for telling me that I need to serve HANDS ON!!!

November 15, 2005

Thank you coz we are allowed to change subjects until Nov16! I can still process my CD courses. I love the class of Ma’am Jec, aside from the fact that her color is blue and she's a graduate of Political Science.

Sorry for my outbursts. Is it wrong to get mad?

November 16, 2005

I am sleepy already but I’d still love to talk to You. Thank You coz my Prof in Mgt 101 was able to sign the change mat form. Lord, I love You; and please help me control my tongue and to be careful of my ways.

Love,

Zends

Monday, March 21, 2011

Trailing Thoughts

MIDNIGHT. Lying on my bed and still wide awake. All my senses are sensitive during this time of the night. I can hear the late night show coming from the television of the next room; my roomy’s sound sleep at the sala; my heart burning. Sleep has been evading me the past weeks and I have to tire my eyes in front of the computer so they’ll be forced to shut by themselves. I tried counting sheep, drinking milk, and praying for everyone until I doze off. They just pop into my mind. ANGER. How he loves to destroy me. BITTERNESS. How he loves to poison me. They keep on coming back…whenever I lay my head on this pillow…whenever I close my eyes to rest…whenever the lights shut off and the moon hums her melodies. I am always faced with this battle. Every time I close my eyes, I hear them…whispering their lies. Yet, deep within I hear a voice telling me to persevere. I praise the Lord for strength; for reminding me who I am in Christ; for filling my heart with His love. I praise the Lord for wisdom that comes from above and for a heart that fights for love. I praise God for drooping eyelids…for trailing thoughts…for…zzzzzzzz

Saturday, March 19, 2011

NOW, I REMEMBER.

It’s been a long time since I’ve last heard of the verse:

 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” (Romans 8:28, NIV)

This WAS my life verse. Every time I was asked the question “What is your life verse?” I would recite Romans 8:28 without second thoughts. How can I possibly forget? This was the verse that helped me get through tough times ever since I became a Christian. Yet, amidst the storms in my life now, I forgot. What a shame to forget such powerful and comforting words. Thank you to my friend Jared who reminded me of this through a text message. Now, I remember. This was the verse I held on to when my heart shattered coz the one I thought I ‘love’ found someone else; when I wasn’t able to pass my midterm exam on time coz I was too engrossed with Christmas vacation; when university days were so toxic and hell week was coming. I REMEMBER. Romans 8:28 helped me get through the persecution of being with the family of God; strengthened me in times that I was too weak to wipe my tears and pick myself up;  made me smile for being a fool of falling for someone over and over again. NOW, I REMEMBER. God has the best in mind for me.

Dry your tears. Get up. Take that step. Smile. Wait upon God’s BEST.